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I'm Emilie, a student and software developer, especially passionate about the web and tools for thought.
Online, I go by Kewbish . It's a unique nickname and the handle I use across all my work. (Bonus: No one else has used it, so I usually always get the username I want when signing up to a new platform and get fairly good search presence.)
Over the years, people've asked me a few times "what's a kewbish?" and "what does it mean?".
🚨 Spoiler alert: Nothing deep. I was 13, getting onto the internet for the first time, and just threw some letters together.
Regardless, here goes: the history behind the handle!
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Like most kids growing up during the rise of YouTube, I played around with posting videos and starting a channel.
I was too shy (and too boring) to post vlogs, didn't have the friends around to make skits, and not quite skilled enough to make tutorials.
But I was into gaming. I'd watch other Let's Players work their way through games and was even tinkering around with a few of my own. I was interested in indie gaming at the time, so I decided to record Let's Plays too.
Even though I was interested in gaming, that didn't mean I was good at it. Far from it - I considered myself a bit of a noob.
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I was also a massive bookworm. I'd read at the dinner table, when we went out for shopping (shoutout Costco book section), and under my desk at school.
I remember going to the library every weekend and coming home with a heavy bag of books that I could barely lift.
I'd drag it in, plop down on the couch, and make my way through them all over the course of the week.
There was one book I read once, The True Meaning of Smekday by Adam Rex.
It's about aliens and kid-friendly dystopia and weird animals. Oh, and J.Lo.
It wasn't a life-changing book. I liked the story, and it was fun to read. But I read it, and moved on to the next in my weekly to-be-read stack.
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One day, I was thinking about nothing, when I realized something.
In The True Meaning of Smekday, there's a brief mention of a type of alien animal called a koobish. It looks like this:
Not the most friendly and cute.
But remember what I said about YouTube and gaming and being a noob? What if I was a Noobish Koobish?
But that looked funny - I didn't like the look of all the o's. So I switched them to ews.
And so, Newbish Kewbish was born. Here's the logo that I used to have for my YouTube channel.
I didn't go too far with the gaming thing: I tried out lots of fun indie games on itch.io and called a video a success if it hit 10 views.
I got bored after a while, so kind of let it go. Come high school, my friends were OSINTing me a little too much, so I deleted the channel and all the assets, and filed many Google takedown requests to wipe the internet of the cringe.
I dropped the 'Newbish' part of my handle sometime after, when I started getting into web development. (I also just wanted to make sure my friends didn't dig up my old videos.) Since then, I've just been Kewbish.
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That brings us to roughly present-day me.
In short, Kewbish is inspired by the Koobish from The True Meaning of Smekday, with a couple extra dashes of tech and tools for thought.
I think people that ask me what Kewbish means think there's a secret story behind it: a childhood memory, a tale of love and deceit, some play on words they're not getting. In that sense, I think this history's comparatively a little boring. Apologies!